Hello new life

There is no doubt in my mind that 2012 is a good year. Every day is a good day indeed. But i have no idea that i have so many goodbyes this year. I have to say goodbye to my college life, love life, and now my home for the last 5 years. And this upcoming month, May, i have to say goodbye to 2 workmates. I gotta admit, this year is a tough year. Positively.

Today i moved out from my crib to a new one, closer to my office. For a better health is a main reason why. Do i feel sad? Oh course. I lived there 5 years, i have so many memories there. I grew up there, i cried there, i spent days and nights with memories there. I love my room, i really am. It witnesses everything in my life. My first day in college, my long night making homework, my special moments with special ones, my lazy days, and days when i prayed harder because i'm on trouble. Life has been good to me for the past 5 years, and that lovely room was my perfect company during them all. I love love love it.

But nothing lasts forever. It wont be my room forever. I, somehow, have to move out. New life was starting and it wont wait for me. I havc to catch them, as hard as i can, because what i do now is for my better future. And i am the one who had responsibility to make it happen. So, i started to look for a new crib around the office. I spent 2 nights on last week looked for a new place. And now, here i am, writing from my new room. It's finally look more lovely than before. I'll post some pictures later people. Now, its time to hit the hay. Good night, lovely people.

i miss Singapore

I miss Sing-a-pooh! Mama, please, let me go to Singapore this (sort of) long weekend, either it’s on March or April (Easter break). One of the reason why I want to go to Singapore is to watch Wicked. Wicked is a theater broadway live in Marina Bay Sands. Huhuhu. I’d like to call it (watch a broadway) as one of my 2012 resolution. Last year I asked mom to watch Lion King, but ended up having holiday in Kuala Lumpur and Penang. I've already asked a friend who lived in Singapore about the show, the price where is the nearest hotel and what is another interesting point around MBS. Wicked itself will be playing until April 22, 2012. So, it means, I have to go there at least on April to watch the show. 

I also want to take a rest from Jakarta. This city mess my life since Monday to Sunday. Well, non-stop traffic, rain lately, and less rest time. Even in weekend I still have to catch up some things. Never ending to-do-lists kills me. Huhuhu. I even don’t have time to go to the movies and do manicure-pedicure. So, wake up in Singapore, hotel breakfast, less traffic, shopping spree all the day, fancy foods or others gastronomic spree and cute snap shots with SLR and lomo is one of A HUGE DREAM! Whoahh, if I have money my own (I’m on my way to produce some), I will book a flight and straightly go to Singaporeeeee!

My friends asked me to join their Singapore trip with a cheap price + hotel, but I haven’t ask mom about it. I bet she’ll be agree, but the next question is who will be my company there? Mom won’t worry about my itinerary, but, with who I will sleep at night. So, this cheap trip with friends will be postponed and I’ll ask mom to be my company instead. Is it really nice plan as it sound? I will say yes! So, now, let’s hoping mom will approve this plan. Please say AMEN! Meanwhile, let’s work hard. So, we can afford our own holiday with our own money. Can’t wait!

 Wicked's info is here. Do check it!

sum of 2011 : December

Ah, last post. I finally made it. Hihihi.

I was thinking about Christmas all the time. I bought a small look-alike Christmas tree to put in my buffet. I put Christmas songs in ipod and listening to it all the time. My favorite for this year is Celine Dion's song, The Magic. It was my favorite Christmas song back then  in high school. I don't really like mellow songs to celebrate such a happy moment like Christmas, although i enjoy Buble's album. I love Christmas! Some new dresses and tops are in my luggage now, ready to go. So, wait for me, home.

Boyfriend was here 2 weeks ago, for 4 days. He had a conference and put me in. Hehehe. Finally i have a chance to see my idol, Mrs. Mira Lesmana. Too bad, they don't have Nicholas Saputra with her. I also join creativity and entrepreneuship seminar by Mr. Sandiaga Uno, and my former chairman of foundation, Mr. Ciputra. Thanks to boyfriend, i'm thinking to start a bussiness, but haven't decided the product. Hehe. We also had our late anniversary celebration and watched Arthur Christmas. The movie was great and funny. A good start to glow our Christmas spirit, cause actually i never believed on Santa Claus. Blame the scary Zwarte Piet or Black Pete in Chirstmas celebration back then in Manado. I was scared :(

 

my Christmas tree. 

One of the Christmas tree in my home. 

Anyway, yesterday was a hectic day. I went to 4 different places to take 4 differents important stuffs. Brother joined me and we had lunch together in Kitchenette and bought a jacket for him, as his Christmas gift. Then, i had a dinner with high school friends. We had a nice chit-chat and did some window shopping. Some of this and some of that happened to us this year and I'm hoping for our best. Dealing with these hard days is not an easy thing to do. Some resolution has to be listed for New Year. Get a job or back to college are my top of list. Hehehe. But for now, let's packing for tomorrow, yes, i'm coming home tomorrow. Super excited!

That's all the summary of 2011. Is it really a bore year? Hahaha, as i look back and read my own posts, i dispose my previous statement and proudly say it is a happy year, like all the years in my life. I have a perfect family, brother back to college, dad's 50th birthday, parents are still together in their 22 marriage life, graduation day, holidays, health, enough food and clothes, and i'm still with the same boyfriend. Hihihi. A happy year indeed.

And the last but not least, i'm wishing you all,

M e r r y C h r i s t m a s

 a n d

H a p p y N e w Y e a r 2 0 1 2

ps : enjoy your holiday
pss : don't forget to list the resolution for 2012. hehehe.

first year

Ta-daa, the day has come. Today is my first anniversary with Dave. Too bad he's not here and we can't celebrate it together, but thanks God today is Sunday which means we both can go to the church and pray, personally to God. We should ask Him to always protect us, give us more happiness and bless the relationship. Due to this long distance, we can't blow the candle (i love blow-candle thing, can't wait for my birthday hehe), eat the same anniversary cake or eat out in somewhere together, so we decided to give something to each other. I'm basically give him things he likes. Yeah, i'm not a surprise girl. I even told him what will i give him a week before i send it. Hihihi. I told him not to give me any gifts because he'd given me a lot already. Besides, my birthday, Christmas, and New Year will coming soon, so i'll make him broke. Hahaha. No, he had already known what i want, and i know it takes longer time for him to bring it to my hand, so let's keep waiting.

Anyway, he gave me this video this morning. I love that cartoon, most of my BBM friends -and i- used it as their display picture. Dave told me that he had 30 pictures of it, thats why he edited and send to my email. I love it. Thank you dearest boyfriend. Happy anniversary for us and can't wait to cuddle you real soon :))

happy birthday dear:)

I'm blessed to have a very humble boyfriend, who always accept all my silly habits. I like to make personal nicknames to most of things in the world, especially for things which happen in my daily life. So, no wonder i have million nicknames for boyfriend, since the first time we've become friends. Hahaha, it was a year ago. Time flies, right, Xiao Po? 

Then, few days ago was his birthday. I won't tell you the number, to make him comfortable (giggling all the way.hihihi), but let me give you some of the photos on that special day. Last year i gave him a picture, later i put it on BBM's display picture. Just a picture, but i knew he loves it to the bits. A simple photo of me, holding a doll, an eeyore, and a paper "Happy Birthday, nduttt". Yup, that time i call him Ndut. But this year is kinda bit different. I was here, so i can greet him myself, so here i am went to his crib. I brought him a cake, with his face on the top of it. To make it complete, i also gave him a card and some presents. It was a relieving moment so far, more than my own birthday. We ended it with a fancy dinner and pray together. 

Happy birthday dearest one. Thanks for being real, warm, and big-hearted. Love you! 

Oh, God

God doesn't have Blackberry or an iPhone, but He's my favorite contact. 

He doesn't have Facebook, but He's my best friend.

He doesn't have Twitter, but i follow Him. 

He doesn't have internet, but i'm connected to Him.

Thanks God for being my very-very-very important friend, father, saviour, lover, and healer (at the same time)!

I love You.

hey June

Sorry to say June, but i hate you already. You makes me under pressure, lonely, and cry a lot. Brother are about to moving, sadly said (deep breath), tomorrow. I still have to fight for my thesis, due date next Monday. A long fighting with boyfriend, and i still don't know how can i name this kind of life. I'm exhausted. Last weekend, i spent more than 24 hours to do some revision, while the world were watching Champion League final match, congrats to Barcelona. Unlucky me, that sort of big effort i ever did means nothing significant to my thesis. I have to read read and read more theories, journals, text books, then find more related theories so i could analyse it. I'm tired, body and mind. 


I lost myself lately. I became a moody, messy girl. Yap, it tells a lot why i had a long fighting with boyfriend. I just know, it's senseless, what we're fighting for, but for the sake of my self-esteem, i'll let him go. (another deep and long breath). Sometimes i think i have to quit, quit from my ordinary life. I gotta stop to pleased everybody. I'm not a kind of superhero, wondergirl, the best sister and daughter ever. I'm only human. I could cry, i could failed, i could angry to God and blame Him. I knew He'll catch me when i hit that bottom crash, not yet fortunately, but i know i will someday. Thanks God for what have You done to me. You are great.


(sigh). I'm in brother's crib now, helping him to pack his stuff. He gave me a lamp and some cotton, he's not using it anymore. I miss him already. I miss babeh, mama and little brother too. I miss my Dape Bear. I miss me. I miss..

long-distance valentine

meet us, me and Dape Bear.

he's as big as teddy bear, his twin.

but his heart is bigger than any (bears') heart i know. 

i made mistakes to him, got him mad on me, made him worry, 

cried for me (oops) but he still loves me (that's why i love him).

happy valentine, Dape Bear :)

randomness

Happy Monday.

I planned to send an email to my dean again this morning but ended up with seeing photos that boyfriend gave me last weekend. I love his pictures and to be honest i tend to see those pictures again and again. If only i could put all our pictures in handphone, i will put them all hehehe. Anyway, i'm going back to Jakarta on Friday after spending a month in Manado. I had great times here, especially with him. We met, we talked, we cuddle (thank God i have a big boyfriend. haha!), we watched movie, we cook and eat together, we fought. Ah, the latter was an annoying one. Can i blame pms? hahaha.. I realized that we are a new couple, and we're about to begin our (real) long distance relationship. I have no idea when will i meet him again and sometime when i think about it i got mad. Not because i don't trust him or trust my self. Maybe the fact that i won't meet him in quite long time and the distance between us are killing me.

That's why i feel so random these days. I lost my appetite. Another thing that annoyed him. I'm sorry. But this childish side in me who always want to get what her wants is shown up now. Life has treaten me so well the last 30 days. Christmas, our first real date, birthday, New Year, his parents' anniversary, family gathering, yeah all good days. I. just. want. more. But now i felt a bit lost. I do plan my future but somehow i feel confused. Thesis, which suppose to be the first thing in my mind doesn't attract me. Family, my supporters, i know they love me, but they dissapointed me lately. Maybe it's better for me to fly back to Jakarta. I'll get back my me-time, rethink about things i should do. Sort of self-relief thing. Unfortunately, after i get my self relief, i can't fly back to Manado, but have to start my research. Huhuhu. I'd like to come to Manado anytime soon. How i wish Jakarta-Manado is like Jakarta-Bandung, so i'll be home every weekend after research. sigh.

See, how random me today. Sorry for this random post. Please crossing your fingers and pray for my better mood. I really want to have good days before leaving this town, and i won't let this bad mood ruins it. Huff. Hey, mood booster, where are you?

things that make me happy

I could list thousand things that make me happy. Really. But now, i'm gonna list things that makes me terribly happy lately. 

1. Smelling mom's cook. She's the best chef in the world. The best mom also. 

2. Found a new simcard since the old one disappointed us. Well, i'm still using the old one actually. 

3. Chatting via bbm with my brother. I'm so glad he finally bought blackberry. Hehehe. 

4. Seeing my dad and mom on church, sitting with brothers and enjoy the service.

5. Eating food which i've been craving about since ever i left this town. 

6. Err, have i told you that i become a fan of black forest now? yes, i do now. hahaha.

7. Internet connection in my house is getting faster. Woohoo!

8. Playing ipod with brother. 

9. Sharing stories with my best friend. 

10. Listing these happy things in my blog :)

I know i'll have many happy things in 2011. But to be honest, i can always find things that make me happy or even terribly happy. Good life is sorrounding me.

akhirnya 21

Heihooo, akhirnya saya punya kesempatan untuk online via laptop. Berarti post kali ini akan disertai cerita yang cukup panjang, plus beberapa foto. Yup, post kali ini tentang ulang tahun saya yang ke-21 tahun kemarin. Saya genap berusia 21 tahun kemarin, 29 Desember. Detail banget ya? Kali2 ada yang tiba2 kepikiran pengen ngasih kado ya mana akan saya tolak. Hahahaa.. Saya senang sehari kemaren, meskipun agak sedikit merasakan aroma konspirasi dari sang pacar dan sahabat saya. Tapi akhirnya malam kemarin ditutup dengan hal2 manis dan bahkan berlanjut hingga hari ini.

Emm, perihal kado, tidak banyak sama sekali. Bukan suatu tradisi di keluarga saya untuk merayakan ulang tahun. Yah, termasuk perayaan memberikan kado. Kadang suka iri deh lihat keluarga yang hobi ngumpul dan tukaran kado sama keluarganya karena itu bukan tradisi di keluarga saya. Saya pribadi kurang begitu menyukai kejutan. Anehnya saya suka bersikap spontan (baca:impulsif) untuk banyak hal seperti berbelanja atau berjalan2. Hal itu salah dan saya tahu itu, tapi untuk bersikap lebih bijaksana dan asertif juga akan lebih baik.

Harapan saya pribadi untuk usia 21 tahun ini juga tidak muluk-muluk. Menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik adalah hal mutlak, ditambah kesehatan dan kekuatan untuk bisa menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik itu. Mungkin bagi sebagian orang lebih baik membuat list, saya juga sih sebenarnya, tapi entah kenapa saya terlalu mencintai usia 20 tahun saya dan berharap dia bisa bertahan lebih lama. Jadinya saya menjalani usia saya kali ini dengan semangat usia 20 tahun saya. Masih hangat semangatnya, masih cukup kuat usaha untuk menjalani hidup dan masih cukup banyak cinta serta kebahagiaan untuk sekitar. Hidup saya bahagia. Saya puas dengan fakta itu.

Semoga usia ini membawa banyak keberuntungan bagi saya, baik dalam kehidupan pribadi saya, juga dalam aspek2 lainnya. Saya, seperti biasa, tidak mendapat banyak hadiah ketika ulang tahun. Yah, meskipun tahun lalu hadiah saya cukup banyak sih. Hehehe. Tapi tahun ini, saya ditemani oleh orang2 penting dalam hidup saya. Keluarga, sahabat dan pacar. Bahkan makan malam pun rame2, meskipun di hati kecil pengen berdua pacar sih. Oops, tapi gapapa, untuk yang udah terjadi kemaren udah lebih dari cukup untuk menemani saya di usia 21 ini. Saya senang. Puas. Bahagia. Terima kasih 21 tahun kehidupan ini. Masih banyak tahun2 penuh kejutan dan kebahagiaan lainnya. Saya yakin itu. 

in days count

1. I'll finish my final exam regardless the marks. Hehehe. I felt bad this semester.

2. I'll check all mother's request as 'checked'.

3. I'm gonna eat waffle and ice cream from Pancious. I've been craving for it since I got my ticket home.

4. Me and brother will find little brother's request. I knew I couldn't find it myself.

5. I'm gonna drink quickly everytime I go to mall. Hehehe..

6. I'll find my second birthday gift for my self. I also have to tell Epenk to bring the first one. I-am-indeed-beyond-excited!

7. Should manage time to pack. Huff, clumsy me.

8. I'll meet him and spend times together. Woohoo!

9. I'll be 21yo. A bit scary but I know I'm gonna enjoy my day. Hihihi.

wishes list

Ignore the title please, because in fact i won't ramble in here about my wishes. One month prior to my birthday actually and surprisingly i don't come with (lots) wishes this year. Maybe just one wish, a silly one. I only wish i could have 2010 again, or maybe longer than it should be. I just love this year and a bit worry about next year. Hahaha.. Silly wish right? Will someone surprise me with this gift? No one can, for sure.

Anyway, i lied to you if i said i have nothing on wish list. Maybe each day i woke up, i've already have a wish. A simple one, i wish i could have lunch in some places (i'm all about good food *pardon me hehe) or i wish i won't be late to campus. Just a little wish everyday. But it'll be different if you list your wishes for your upcoming birthday. I did it months ago. Some wishes were on my lists, some were checked, yet some are about to be fulfilled. Another silly list about things i need to have or at least i thought maybe i'll need it someday. Actually i could make a new list, butttt, somehow i just need the time could walk slower then i'll have more time to rethink about things i like. Though i know, in the end  i want nothing but Hermione's pendulum to travel through times. Hahaha..

My friend, Desi, was here for hours ago and teased me about many things today and vice versa. Suddenly she asked what i want for my birthday. Okay, she's really a good friend. Hahaha.. She told me that once i pointed 'a thing' in one shop to her and said that i want that thing. I recalled it for minutes before i got what 'thing' and automatically i said yes, i still need it. Though it wasn't on my list anymore. Hehe.. Ah, maybe i should write down again those things and remind my friends that they still have one month to prepare their gifts. Hahaha.. I love listing stuffs i like as much as i'm happy having those stuffs again and again. Sorry for my ramble post tonight, bloggie. But don't you think that time flies so fast this year? Cause i do.

letter for beloved ones

Dear God,

Thanks to Your guideness for me in October.

Dear Dad,

Thank you, you've come back again to the city.

Dear mother,

I adore you.

Dear brother,

Thank you for making me cry these days. I'll support you all the way.

Dear baby brother,

Thank you for your sillyness. I miss you.

Dear close friends,

Thank you. I couldn't ask for more. Be healthy, be nice, be yourselves.

Dear eeyore and gloria,

You both aren't the sweetest ones, but we love you and will take care of you.

Dear homeland, Medan,

Please help me to appreciate you more.

Dear rain,

I've never thought that I could loathe you this much lately. Sorry.

Dear latte,

I wish I could have you today.

Dear D (or whatever name I gave you),

Thank you for the lurve-thing. Me likey a lot :)

The last,

Dear October,

Thank you. You are wondeful!

cemas

Malam ini saya cemas. Malam ini saya merasa bahwa saya tidak cukup siap untuk mengerjakan persiapan skripsi. Malam ini saya tahu bahwa mengerjakan tugas lebih baik daripada membaca literatur untuk skripsi. Malam ini saya menyadari bahwa saya tidak ada attachment yang cukup kuat dengan lokasi penelitian saya. Saya sadar bahwa saya masih anak-anak yang tidak ingin dewasa secepat ini (baca : lulus kuliah).

Hari ini sidang seminar proposal saya yang pertama. Saya senang dengan penampilan saya. Sebagai penampil pertama, saya rasa saya cukup siap dan prima. Okei, agak lebay untuk kata prima, karena faktanya saya pusing sedari bangun, bahkan hingga sekarang. Jadi ketika saya tidak kenapa2 di depan saat mempresentasikan proposal saya, itu bisa dikategorikan sebagai penampilan yang prima. Berada di depan umum selama 20 menit, sedikit ditentang oleh penguji kedua perihal judul, disarankan untuk pemilihan lokasi, penekanan pada variabel. Err, banyak, tapi memang benar adanya. Saya sendiri sudah memikirkan hal2 tersebut, dan sedikit banyak tahu bagaimana cara mengatasinya. Syukurlah.

Namun, itu semua terasa sedikit aneh malam ini. Saya kehilangan informed consent saya. Informed consent sendiri amat saya perlukan meskipun yang akan saya lakukan hanyalah wawancara tahap awal. Mau tahu gimana rasanya informed consent ilang? Saya pengen nangis beberapa menit yang lalu. Bahkan sampai menganti status bbm saya, kali2 ada teman seangkatan yang bisa mengirimkan kepada saya. Dan benar saja, seorang teman mengirimkan. Jika tidak mendesak sih saya tidak sampai pengen nangis tapi karena ini mendesak, wajar rasanya saya pengen nangis. *cari pembelaan terus. hehehe.

Saya akan bergerak mencari subyek besok. Ah, saya tiba2 ingat, dosen asistensi saya pernah mengatakan bahwa sebagai peneliti, ada baiknya kita membuat juga catatan pribadi kita tentang jalannya penelitian. Sepertinya akan ada label khusus nanti di blog ini mengenai perjalanan penelitian dalam rangka skripsi saya. Aih, terlihat sekali saya penuh kecemasan malam ini ya bloggie?  Iya, saya cemas. Saya cemas akan hal2 yang belum tentu terjadi. Saya cemas saya bukan pewawancara yang baik. Saya cemas saya emosional ketika bersama subyek saya. Eh, tapi mengingat saya harus bersikap netral sebagai peneliti, semoga saya bisa membuktikan kalau saya memang sudah selayaknya memasuki tahap ini. Lebih lanjut, saya layak mendapat gelar S.Psi tahun depan. *kait2 semua jari. hahaha.

Maapkan postingan tercemas saya malam ini. Huff.

smiling all the way

I love my last weekend. An usual one, since brother moved here. We went to church together and had lunch afterward, mostly we had disscussed about the place since the previous Sunday. So, after church we straightly went to the place, or mall. But yesterday, daddy was here and i-am-beyond-excited about this thing. I haven't go to the same church with daddy in Jakarta, although he's often come here for a visit. So, i won't waste my time. I dressed up earlier yesterday, met them in brother's crib and went to church by foot together. After church, we had lunch in Puri Indah Mall and eye-ed in Ace Hardware. Mom gave me a job to find a perfect kitchen set for her, or create one. Dad and brother was eye-ing on sofas all the time. I felt they're somewhat similar at the time. I love them both, to be honest. Hihihi. They made my day :) 

Then we ate out again at night. Plus a long chit-chat about my future (read: thesis). Daddy was the one, who gave me courage and be my biggest supporter about my thesis. He offered me (and will accompany me) to fly back to my homeland, Medan (err, deep inside my heart, i'd love to say Manado is my homeland, but my 'blood' won't let me. hahaha) to do my research. One thing for sure, it'll be a pricey thesis. sigh. Too bad my supervisor disagree with my idea to do research in Jakarta, so i gotta back to Medan to check all my subjects. I hope i could make it faster, so i won't back there more often than i think i would do. *crossing fingers! A week to go anyway, but i haven't finished my proposal yet. Let's find subjects, do research, make a report, and so on. Some steps has to be finished by the end of this year. Hahaha, obviously, my day will be busy with these stuffs. But no worries, i will survive.

You know what? As much as i love to smile (and bigger than that), I love my daddy. I do.

some pieces from my UP life

-UP-

Hi, half me. I miss you. It's been like ages i didn't share you my story. Life becomes good lately. Some things are changing, in a good way, lucky me and i think God blessed me more than i could imagine. So, thank Him for that. I still travelled during this month, while prepared for brother's stuffs to entering his college. He is officially a university student now, started last Monday. Some problems happened actually, between mom and brother, but they, or we solved it well, and that's the most important thing. He has made some friends in his kost, good ones i think. Hope they'll last for a long time.

I also started my new semester, as a four-year-student. Got a job as a assistant in two classes. Kinda like this job, the lecture and the subject especially. It's related to my thesis and how i can do my research. Not for the money, but the knowledge. Ah, my most favorite lecture has also accepted my thesis proposal. Have i told you life has been good to me lately? Cause it is, really. I'll start to discuss my thesis with her next week, and already felt a bit excited. Can't wait to finish this stuff and get my bachelor degree. *crossing fingers

Then, why i could say i'm leading an UP life? Have you watched UP? A good cartoon movie, endless love story between elderly couple, and the fat boy. Hahaha, my mom was its fan, and i remembered well how funny the situation in time i watched this movie, early August last year. No, i'm not getting old with someone, not even find him. But, some sweetness are sorrounding me. And i don't need any single balloon to blow me upper. I'm already in UP.

ps: i'll be back soon dearest bloggie, no need to worry :)

quick hello for August

August will come in minutes and i'd like to share you some things. They happened lately, running in my mind and made me a bit confused to step forward. Not all things, of course, i also bring you some good news in life. I went to a holiday, 10 days, with 3 of my friends. They are my college friends, their names appeared in this blog, though not that often. We went to Lombok, Bali and Jogja. Actually i arrived at Jakarta last night, still tired, but i spent this Saturday with happiness. I talked to brother, he's about getting closer to me this month, yup, move out from Manado to Jakarta. I also talked to my best friends. For all we've been through, i still can say, i support you all the way. Best luck for you, my strong girl. Then, i've cleaned my room, transfered photos into my laptop and had a conversation with my senior. Hahaha, i bet you'll read this post, you know who you are. Enjoy your bakpia, ya. 

Anyway, August wasn't really my month. I just know that i'll be busy with brother's stuff, campus stuffs, and maybe dad's also. August recalls me things to be remembered. Good and bad. Like every month actually. Be nice August, i know you'll surprise me, like always. But please not a bad one(s), but goods.

Some spots from Lombok and Jogja. Enjoy it. 

Pasar Seni Ubud with a dancer

Gili Air, Lombok

Tanah Lot, Bali

letter for my dear friends

dear friend yang baru putus dari pacarnya, 

putus itu bukan akhir dari dunia. tadinya membaca note-mu membuatku sedikit membenarkan keputusan putus itu, namun di akhir note kok ngegantung ya? jadi kesel sendiri sama si mantan itu. yah, meskipun udah yakin ini yang terbaik, ada kalanya mesti mengambil langkah mundur. semoga keputusan ini tidak salah ya teman.

dear friend yang sedang berulang tahun,

yah, mungkin dia ga baca post ini sih, tapi beneran cuma mau ngucapin selamat ulang tahun kok Cliff (akhirnya kesebut nama deh, kali aja dia baca), kecuali lagi ada stok film baru ni hehehe.. Good luck buat KP-nya.

dear friend yang sepertinya sama-sama sedang memanipulasi fesbuk teman lain (hihihi),

cuma 1 kalimat saja dan mungkin kamu bosan mendengarnya. " Qt pengen ke Bandungggggg!" 

dear friend yang sedih mengenang tanggal 7,

akan ada banyak tanggal 7 indah lainnya menanti dirimu. hari2 akan selalu indah meskipun bukan tanggal 7. percayalah.

dear friends kelompok Guthrie, 

terima kasih atas kerjasamanya hari ini. semoga hasil karya kita beneran sampe dengan selamat di hari Selasa yaa... dan untuk tugas mendatang, jangan make-up aku ketebelan ya, teman. hahaha..

dear friend yang menemaniku makan mpekmpek dan pisang cokelat keju,

terima kasih, kamu menyelamatkanku dari hari Jumat yang penuh kelaparan dan kelelahan. kita harus sering2 mengeksplore teman makan yang aman buat kamu yaa. jadi rencana makan kita2 tidak tergganggu.

dear friends, para lelaki sok sibuk,

ga mau tahu, mesti ada KFC dan Quickly pengganti buat batalnya janji hari ini yaa.. kangen kalian semua plus si ibu dokter. ah ya, akhir bulan ini kita semua ketemu dandan manis dan ganteng yaa, kita harus bangga sama si pria satu itu. hehehe..

dear friend yang setia di kelas PP dan hampir di semua kelas semester ini,

maapkan kalau permen bubuk kopi-nya ga pernah aku makan ya, ga suka kopi sih. huhuhu.. boleh diganti aja ga jadi permen kopiko? itu lebih masuk ke selera soalnya. hahaha.. terima kasih di kelas tadi ya, semoga semprol kita akan lancar sentosa :))

dear best friends aka best couple in the world,

makasih pa, ma, buat fotonya. buat telponnya. jangan lupa tanyain titipanku yaa. *kait jari. hihihi..

dear good friends / good brothers, 

u just have no idea how much i've missed u and about simple words u text me? it pushed me over the edge :))

the last but not least,

dear best friend in heaven,

i can't thank enough for Your kindness in my life. day by day You showed me how good this life is and how i could make everyday better than yesterday. thanku for all my friends, not just for today, but for yesterday and days ahead. thanku Lord. 

before i hit my bolster

I need to go to sleep soon, but there's something inside my head and i feel like wanna share it here. Hope you don't mind, bloggie (of course you wont, i knnow that for sure, hahaha).

• my brother graduated from senior high school. yayyy! it was a good news for today, i was like nervous all the day, waiting for the result. and suprisingly, he got 9,75 in physics. how come, brother? i haven't seen you study that hard! hahahaha.. no offense, just a little observation, as a good sister. anyway, congrats to you. i was a bit mad with you actually, i hope you know that and will send your apology message tomorrow. i miss you terribly much and i wish i were home today and celebrate it. though you chose to celebrate it with your friends than family. huff, boy..
• i was about going to Bandung this weekend. yah, last weekend was an unpleasant one for me, so i decided to ask daddy if i could go to Bandung. i promise i wont shop like crazy (as i always did in previous visits), i just need a refreshment. and Bandung will be great, always great i might admit. so, i'm going to ask daddy tomorrow, wish me luck bloggie, and tell him i will be save there and wont do something bad. i just wanna find a new air, beside this city never sleep, Jakarta.
• i changed my twitter avatar and added some bios. at first, i only wrote eeyore lover there, then, i added it with sister of 2 silly brothers and wishing her lomo's result will satisfy her. yah, those words describe me well, right? i wish i could finish lomo's current roll so i could see the results. i hope it'll satisfy me. and about 2 silly brothers, i don't mind you sillyness, i miss you.. ahh, sounds so pathetic, huh? poor me, this pms (blame it) brought me to this gloomy-syndrome. yeah, that's why i need to escape a while from this hectic university world. though i am a lazy one.

Okay, i was just ignoring one resume, i wanna sleep now. i need a good quality one. another great day will meet me tomorrow. ah, hoping daddy will be in a good mood also. mom especially hahaha.. i miss them and wish them nice dreams. good night everyone :)