differences between us

WOMAN needs ..

care
understand
respect
fidelity
honest

MAN needs ..

trust
acceptness
appreciation
amazement
confession



what need(s) i haven't get and what need(s) i should give?

a day with loloy

Yesterday I went out with Loloy. I promised to woke her up at 9pm, but i was in phone with GAP, so i haven't waking her up until 9.30pm and i have to prepare my self too. I arrived in her crib at 11.15pm but still have to wait her finish until 11.50pm, and catched a P6 bus in front of UNTAR. We have a great conversation in that bus, until a "pujangga" came and tell us his poem, the BEST COMPLICATED POEM i've ever heard. I love poem and it's essence, but i didn't get any essence in his poem, sorry guys :(

Anyway, i felt hungry, so we choosed to have a lunch before we shopping. We went to Rice Bowl, if I'm not mistaken in 1st floor, choose Paket A and a strawberry juice (no ice no sugar) for me and avocado pearl for Loloy. We talked about a lot things there, from my bored point in university, our mom, GAP also, bros and so on. Yeah, eventhough Loloy is untalkative one, but, she is a good listener, good commentator also, especially in fashion hehe..

me and my new kaffiah

After we eat, we went back to Centro Department Store there, and didn't get want we wanna buy (shoes, actually), it was so crowded there, so we moved to the other side of Centro, then, we found these kaffiahs hehe.. Not as good as i want, but i bought it already haha..

Got no place to go, we catched taxi to go to the next destination, Metro Department Store in Taman Anggrek Mall. I bought 2 pieces dress from TheoryX, and was happy with that, cause it's almost a day walking and i haven't got one hehe.. Happy with that dress, i will use it at Christmas hehe.. And the best part of that day was my new "gantungan hape" hehe.. So sweet for that price hehehe.. I loved it :)

thanks for this shopping trip, Loloy

rOOm swEEt rOOm

I am alone today, if i can clearly say i am alone all these days in Jakarta. I woke up alone, i toke a bath alone (hehe, i just wanna make it a lil bit hyperbola), ate alone, doing everything alone, think about everything alone and so on. It makes me love my 201 room in Tawakal Ujung Raya 24 so much. I share my tears here, sadness, and love also.

But, last night(s), i missed my own room in Manado. I miss so much, i miss my bed, miss my bathroom, miss my wardrobe i leave on Manado, i miss all the stuff. I just miss Manado, miss mama, miss papa, miss Sintong and miss Daling. Huh, i don't like this feeling at all, makes me got a headache (last night i got a headache, and i just guess it's one of the reason why).

Actually i don't know i miss them or not, now i'm crying cause i can't go back to Manado on Sintong's SIDI. And i just don't know, when will i fly. Huh, i hate this feeling. Why mama always late? Why i always the last to know everything? Why?

So, now i just can cry on my bed, in my 3x3m room sweet room. Enjoying everypart of it, cause, i have left all my feeling in almost a year here. I like it, i love it, cause it's all i have. Here is my life, my feelings, my stuff, my everything.


















view 1 : doors, textbooks,hang up clothes


















view2 : food spot and wardrobe2
















view3 : shoes, wardrobe1, make up

















view 4 : entertainment spot - tv and laptop













view 5 : my eeyore and comfort short bed


Hoping night comes earlier today, i am so tired, i wanna rest it so i can enjoy my next trip for tomorrow with loloy. Now, i wanna back to campus, meet Arlen and Desi to catch busway to have an interview in Panin Tower, next to Ratu Plaza. I really wanna have fun today, get a ticket, enjoying the interview, get a call from abang (i just need it, really), get a sms from mama and the others maybe, just need it..

miss it!

today, i woke up with a guilt, i didn't study well for PPD test today. i now, i supposed to study last night, but i was too tired, so i couldn't study and the most important, i WON'T study. suddenly i lose my will to reach high point on that subject, don't know why. i love the teacher, Henny Wirawan is one of my favourite lecture in Tarumanagara University, or if i can say, one of the best teacher all over my education career. hehehe..

then, as i have predicted before, i ended PPD class like a dumb. i hate myself n feel guilty to my parents cause i won't try hard to study or even finishing read the paper. huff! finally, i lose my feeling to study in Psychology! i feel i do nothing, i just study to get point, or if i have test, and after that, buzz, i forget every single part of that subject. whoah, WHAT SHOULD I DO?

after i finished my 88meal for lunch, i texted my mom about the ticket on Dec20 and gonna ask her what color of "kebaya" will she wear on my bro SIDI on Dec21. and guess what is her answers :
1. his SIDI will be held on Dec7, which is i WON'T BE ABLE TO COME!
2. our church Christmas celebration will be held on
3. now, i'm confusing bout my ticket, which is will take on 20 or 21th Dec
4. uhh, just BETE for that 3 things!!!


now, i have to do my homework for the next week, as usual, a lot of homework to do, a lot of paper to do, a lot a time to do that, and i hope i have a lot of energy to do that, to prove my skill as a psychologist to be and making my parents proud on me.



God, please bless your daughter..

dari Lukman

This morning i have a Personality II class (Kepribadian II) with Lukman. Because he had something he to ask me, he moved next to me. Then i asked him, why he'd never text me more, and he said because i'm not using XL hehe.. Actually, i know exactly it is the reason why, but just hoping he will "ngeles" to me hehe..

So, after debated his question i ask him to pay me, then i took my note and pencil, wait for him and his "wangsit" to give me some magical words. FYI, Lukman is the only man i know who loves philosophy that much, and even collect some magic words from forum in internet hehe.. He also loved Shakespeare and his famous masterpiece, Romeo and Juliet.

Here is some of Lukman's magical words..


Tuhan memberi pelangi di setiap badai
senyum di setiap air mata,
berkat di setiap cobaan,
lagu indah di setiap kesunyian,
dan jawaban di setiap doa..

Di dunia ini, kita bukan mencari
orang yang sempurna untuk dicintai,
tetapi mencintai orang dengan
cara yang sempurna..


Thanku, Lukman

SAKIT LAGI

aku dan mama di ratusan pohon pinus

Mama sakit lagi. Bukan karena hujan, bukan karena angin puting beliung, bukan karena apa, tapi karena miom itu lagi. Sekali lagi mama bermasalah dengan "hal" itu. Huff, dah dari lama dibilang untuk operasi, seingatku Januari 2007 kita dah pernah diskusi tentang kemungkinan itu di Singapore tapi sampai sekarang realisasinya belum jalan.

Mm, i'm getting more curious now, eventhough i don't know exactly what she feels. The only thing i know, mama hopes she's get better as soon as posible, but her womb is sweld, so she cannot do operation on these days. At least we have to wait until next month, but i suggest to do operation in January in Singapore so i can accompany her. I wanna be on her side to face it,i wanna know the preventive things about this cause.

Then, in the afternoon, gap texted me and said he doesn't felt well, he might have a cold, because this whole day he worked on outdoor. Yah, they made me sad, yeah, in a real definition SAD, because they cannot do their activity as well as usual. Hope they are getting better, mom especially, now i'm truly miss her.. Uhh, hope December is tomorrow, so i can pack my bags to go home hehe.. I miss AM 114 and all the people there so much now.

It's getting late, and i still have homework to do, huff..
Get well soon mama n abang,


God bless ya! ^^

happy sunday

greeting HAPPY SUNDAY to all of you!
GOD BLESS US :)

i'm yours

i'm yours by Jason Mraz

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate
I'm yours

Scooch on over closer, dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'd be sayin' is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more it cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you will find that the sky is yours

so please don't, please don't, please don't,
there's no need to complicate,
Cause our time is short
This, this, this is our fate,
I'm yours

simple, cute, accoustic song..

so easy listening, eventhough the text is rather hard to remember for me hehe..

POLA MAKAN

Sebenarnya ga ada yg salah dengan makan. Setiap manusia perlu makan untuk hidup. Begitu pun denganku dan kamu. Tapi, disaat makanan itu tidak lagi membantumu untuk hidup, malah perlahan-lahan namun pasti "membunuhmu", perlukah kita makan sesuka kita lagi?

Ini yang sekarang terjadi sama Tulang Mona. Hari Rabu kemarin tulang kena serangan jantung akut, itu karena dia suka sekali makan yang namanya jeroan, ati, ampela, uhh, pokoknya bagian-bagian terlarang dari binatang. Trus, makan kambing dan daging panggang. Nah, liat kan sekarang, makan jadinya harus dibatasin, dan TIDAK BOLEH PAKAI DAGING SAMA SEKALI!!

Bukankah itu sebuah siksaan, terutama bagi kita orang-orang Batak dan Kristen pula jika tidak bisa makan daging terutama daging babi? Namun, demi mencapai umur yang panjang dan juga sehat, kita HARUS menjaga pola makan kita. Tidak boleh lagi yang namanya sembarang makan, khususnya daging!

Tanggal 23 Oktober yang lalu, aku memutuskan untuk menempuh jalan sehat untuk menurunkan berat badan. Jelas saja orang-orang di sekelilingku langsung protes dan mengatakan bahwa aku tidak gemuk. Mm, iya sih memang, tapi, bukan sekedar ingin turun berat badan yang aku inginkan karena produk ini juga mengatakan bahwa kadar lemakku bisa turun. Yah, menurut timbangan mereka sih, kadar lemakku lebih 6% dari rata-rata normal. Wah, jadi lebih cemas ni, apalagi harganya juga tidak main-main.

logo herbalife yang ada di 66 negara

Yah, seperti yang dibayangkan sebelumnya, mama protes dan buat aku jadi sedih. Tapi, aku harus buktikan bahwa produk ini sukses, kira-kira tanggal 21 November nanti genap 1 bulan, semoga disaat itu, berat badanku telah turun dan kembali normal. Ada teman-teman yang buat aku percaya karena mereka telah berhasil dengan produk ini.

Nah, habis jenguk tulang, abang nelpon. Aku cerita deh tentang besukan ke Siloam Hospital dan penyakit tulang. Dari lama sih aku udah tahu bahwa pola makan abang juga gawat. Kerjaan dia bisa sampai tengah-tengah malam, sukanya makan soto dan daging, belum lagi riwayat bronkhitisnya. Gawat ga, sih??

Trus, tadi malam kita malah membahas tentang makanan-makanan yang harus dia kurangi, karena aku ga bisa bilang pantang, karena aku kan ga bisa liat dia makan gimana dan dimana setiap harinya. Mamanya sudah melarang dia makan terlalu banyak. Dan aku setuju! Itu hal yang bagus, tapi sayangnya abang itu gampang ngambek, dan itu lah, larangan itu bukan bikin dia berhenti makan tapi malah lebih nafsu makan! Apa-apaan itu??

Mulai deh, dia ngurut-ngurutin apa yang mau dia makan, tau apa? Ini dia..

cumi bakar

babi panggang

Wah, gawat kan? Belum lagi kesukaan-kesukaan dia yang lain. Ini nih, gawat banget dan dia bangga akan itu. Waduh!

Aku pun khawatir sih, belum lagi aku memang diet, jadi memang harus menjaga makananku, dan menurutku Hokben di siang ini cukup menyenangkan hehe.. Itulah yang terjadi, setelah abis menentangnya makan daging, namun tetap saja dia makan panggang, dan sekarang lagi makan di acara kawinan, jelas-jelas sekali lagi aku tidak bisa menahan pola makannya, maka aku pun makan makanan kesukaanku, Hoka-hoka Bento paket C hahaha.. I'm so full, thanks God.

Moga-moga aku bisa tetap ngontrol makan abang sesuai mau dia dikontrol atau tidak, dan moga-moga dia ga ngambek karena aku kayak mamanya yang batas-batasin dia makan. Hidup sehat dong, kan kasian kalau sampai sakit karena makanan. Moga-moga..

1 Paket C Hoka-hoka Bento + 1 Aqua = Rp27.000,-




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