Monday, March 30, 2009
Now my mom is 45 years old, 5 years to go to be a half century. Wow, and 5 years to go, i'll be a quarter of century, wowowow, time flies so fast. Mama, i hope you can join my years to go as i hope i can join yours too. I prayed God for it, and believed you prayed me, too. Mama, thanks for being my mom, thanks for all the knowledge you've given me, thanks for giving me chance to grow as a normal girl, thanks for buying me all stuff, thanks for keeping teeling me your biggest secrets and thought, thanks for added me 2 naughty brothers whose i loved the most, thanks for married my big-fat-funny daddy, thanks for trusting me to be your friend, and thanks for all tears you've cried because of me. I can't pay all, i can't share all my life, i can't be the one on this world, i can't buy you the expensive one you wish for, but trust me, i'll love you forever. I love you in my every age until i close my eyes. I love you, mama.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
See, how we need friends, especially after we broke up with someone. I need friends this week, i got them, eventhough i have to lost my bf. Actually i wasn't crying after he left me, and promised myself i won't cry for him, cause he is not the one i will fight for. Thanku, friends :)
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Well, i became sensitive on these words, white lies. All of us have personal experience about white lies, especially on our relationship. But, lies still lies, no excuse for any lies in my relationship. I have to admit, i am not an extrovert person, maybe i can tell many inspiring and more personal stories to my friends, but, i still keep the best part on my mind. Not because i didn't believe them, i believed them, but, i think it's better to keep it myself. My friends also has their own problems, so do i, and i won't to add mine to them. I can laugh with them, i can sing a happy song the whole day, but, in the middle of the night, i still wake up, think and think about my problems.
Now, i have problems with my latest relationship. Well, i think i have to say that it was a relationship, but, i will keep ignoring you who is the guy. He broke my heart! Day by day he kept on telling lies. And the big problem is it was white lies, according to his opinion. Damn you, boy! I couldn't deny that as a woman, we hate lies, no matter what. If you, as a man, was brave and gentle enough, why don't you say good bye to me personally. It'll break my heart, and yes it will, but, it's better than what you have done to me this whole week. You keep ignoring me, still not text or call me, and even worse, you still keep the white lies (on your opinion). Well, you love the lies, don't you? And the person who made you to tell me the (white) lies?
I hate you! And you still don't care about it, don't you?
1. Dia ganteng, menurutku si bukan ganteng, tapi muka baik2 hahaha
2. Dia pake kacamata
3. Namanya sama dengan nama teman baikku
4. Profesinya idaman semua wanita hahaha
5. Tangannya hangat, hahaha, berbahagialah yang pernah disentuhnya (aku juga hahaha)
Harusnya dah ketebak kan kawan2? Apalagi petunjuk yang ke-3 itu. Tapi, aku malu mo cerita disini, berhubung apa yang aku mau ceritain itu cuma buat bahan gosip antara kita2. Wah, gara2 migran aku ketemu dia :)
Tapi, orang yang bikin aku migran malah ga peduli tuh. Mungkin harusnya dia nyadar tiap kali dia bikin masalah, pasti aku migran, tapi dia tetap aja bikin masalah. Kali ini ga mau peduli lagi ah, dia juga ga pernah peduli sama aku kok. Aku tipe orang yang diam kalau marah, nah, yang menyebalkan adalah pasti larinya di migran deh. Huh, menyebalkan!
** another things that makes me happy yesterday : i lose 1 kg! and i have manicure and pedicure and a lil massage hehe, and also sleep as a log last night :)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I'm over your lies
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me
When you know I'm not okay.
You call me and I...
And I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me, I know you're not alone.
Oh and that's why
Your eyes... I'm over it.
You're smile... I'm over it.
Realized... I'm over it, I'm over it, I'm over...
Wanting you to be wanting me.
No, that ain't no way to be.
How I feel.
Read my lips.
Because I'm so over...
It is my time.
You never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first a little bit
But now I'm so over
So over it.
I'm so over it...
Wanting you to be wanting me.
No, that ain't no way to be.
How I feel.
Read my lips.
Because I'm so over it.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Jojo took these pictures when i was in Medan last week. We all knew that my youngest bou, Bou Rita will deliver her son in April 7, 2009. But, i was shock when last night, Maria texted me to inform that the baby will be dilevered soon. Then, Enos Aritonang born last night. Well, thanks be to God for all the good things He had given to us, especially to give Enos to my Bou's family.
>> Today, i move again, back to my old room, with new atmosphere. Whuah, i still have to wait until Thursday to make it finish, because i still have to wait for the desk to come. I more love my room now *kiss kiss* -more pictures in further posts ya..
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Ini berasal dari kutipan Cina, ikuti langkah berikut ini :
1. Pertama, tunjukkan telapak tangan anda, jari tengah ditekuk ke dalam (lihat gambar)
2. Kemudian, 4 jari yang lain pertemukan ujungnya.
3. Permainan dimulai , 5 pasang jari tetapi hanya 1 pasang yang tidak terpisahkan…
4. Cobalah membuka ibu jari anda, ibu jari menwakili orang tua, ibu jari bisa dibuka karena semua manusia mengalami sakit dan mati. Dengan demikian orang tua kita akan meninggalkan kita suatu hari nanti.
5. Tutup kembali ibu jari anda, kemudian buka jari telunjuk anda, jari telunjuk mewakili kakak dan adik anda, mereke memiliki keluarga sendiri, sehingga mereka juga akan meninggalkan kita.
6. Sekarang tutup kembali jari telunjuk anda, buka jari kelingking, yang mewakili anak2. cepat atau lambat anak2 juga akan meninggalkan kita krn hrs berkeluarga sendiri.
7. Selanjutnya, tutup jari kelingking anda, bukalah jari manis anda tempat dimana kita menaruh cincin perkawinan anda, anda akan heran karena jari tersebut tidak akan bisa dibuka. Karena jari manis mewakili suami dan istri, selama hidup anda dan pasangan anda akan terus melekat satu sama lain.
Jadi, 3 minggu lagi, kalo ga salah Loloy ngitungnya tanggal 11 April gitu, aku akan dapat baby baru, wah, kesayangan baru nih harusnya hehehe.. Kelar UTS aku bakal terima sepatu baru deh, moga2 comfy ya, jadi bisa dipake kemana2 deh :) I am looking forward for that wondershoe now *kiss kiss*
Friday, March 20, 2009
I've made this test for long time, but haven't publish my answers yet. I thought some of them are related to me. Well, i'll list here to make me keep reminding it, and share it to you. FYI, this quiz was taken on quizbox.com, if i'm not mistaken.
Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Whuah, it tells me a lot! This is me! One word : AMAZING!
Some of my friends replied it, made their own comments about it. Well, maybe i wasn't asking about God's power, God's works, God's will on this world, but more about how i create my own self according to His plan on me. I know i am different from all of my friends, we all born as an ideal and free person, but in our life we will find a lot of troubles with our differences with others. As a baby, we are same with others, need milk, cry when we are thirsty, need parents hug, but, why we grow to make He cry with thousand mistakes? Maybe, you'll be disorient with all i've wrote, well, me too. I can't find the best words to describe what i mean by asking that question, that's all.. Have a nice day hehehe..
p.s : i just believe, in God, we are the same, we are His children, He won't let us fall, and we won't ask again His mark on Creativity Subject, okay? =p
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Then, i missed inang (my mother's mother) suddenly. I miss her. I can't list what things i miss from her, i just miss her. I want her to sleep with me, listen her stories about my mom hehehe and her siblings, cook together (yeah, i just help her, i can't cook hehehe), whuah, i just miss her. I didn't say any goodbies when she went heaven on August 14, 2006. I know that all of my family miss her too, and now, i am crying, i miss her. Inang, anna kangen..
But, i still have one oma, i called her opung, she is my father's mother. I think i didn't get close with her until now, instead of i am missing my grandpa now. She is my only grandparent now, i have to respect her more, and i hope i can do it better day by day. And now, we had planning a big birthday party for her this December. She'll be 75 years old this year and we planned to wear gold in that party. Last time i met her was 2 weeks ago, and maybe we'll meet again in July for my cousin's wedding before her birthday this December.
Well, this post i dedicate to all grandmas in this world. Hope all of you will live happily in your old days :)
Today also my parents' 20th anniversary. I gave them our face keychain, and was happy because they liked it. But, i forgot to take the picture of that keychain, maybe later when i home i'll take a picture with that. Hmm, now, i am thinking, where will the go for dinner to celebrate it? Mommy, don't forget your cute daughter here ya, hahaha.. I love you all :)
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
1. Get relax after washing my hands and legs
2. Switch off the light
4. Check my AC remote, make sure it still 22degree
5. Sleeeepppp :)
Actually, i'll hug my eeyore first before i close my eyes and try to sleep hehehe *childish mode : on*
I also had token some facebook tests today, and get my eyes blink for some results hehehe..But, later i have to admit, it all connected one another, like about Jakarta life and my personality. Yeah, i am not bore to live in Jakarta, cause i just lived here for almost 2 years. I had no experience on flood, too much crowded, war, and so on. I lived happily in my room, although i became unsatisfy now, hope this week i can move to a better room.
So, i think maybe i have to more respect on Jakarta's citizen. From "gepeng" to President SBY, baby to nanny, jobless to CEO, and so on. Jakarta has its problems, we have to solve it together, maybe i have no right to judge which one better or not, but if i try to make it getting worse, i think i had helped Jakarta. We have to respect one another, to make us realize that Jakarta's brand new day is on our hands, so prove that we love Jakarta by making it a better place to live, to study, to enjoy, and to shopping hehehe..
Now, the second test is about personality. I had many experience about personality today. I had my SSCT inquering with Ci Angel, and i have to admit that i cried last afternoon. I wasn't become more sad after that, instead of feeling better. She is a good sister to me in our chit chat, good listener, and i hope i got good mark from her, too. We discuss about me and my life, i try to tell her everything that related on my SSCT's answers, and i thought it was success, and i was so glad on it.
In facebook personality quiz, i got the result as an introvert person. Well, if you had known me for well you'll disagree with this result, cause i am truly not an introvert one. I am so talkative, bla bla bla. But, after reading the whole answers, this below gray words, i thought i have to agree with it, it is me, but also got confused at the same time. Then, i am an introvert person, am i?
Tipe introvert kadang terlihat kurang expresif di dunia luar, sebagian dari para inrovert lebih menyukai pembicaraan yang bersifat diskusi atau bahasan-bahasan yang dapat memicu pengembangan dalam lingkup teman mainnya/golongannya. Bila berada dalam lingkungannya bisa saja seorang introvert bersikap sangat aktif dan expresif. Tipe ini memungkinkan juga untuk mempunyai banyak lingkup gaul, namun rasa memiliki umumnya hanya ada pada satu lingkup.qu Walau sangat memungkinkan seorang introvert dapat bergaul kemana-mana namun untuk membuka atau menerima sesuatu tidaklah mudah. Mempunyai loyalitas kuat pada golongan / kalangannya dan karena hal ini pula tipe introvert umumnya kurang dapat menilai secara obyektif, namun menjadikannya pelindung yang dapat diandalkan
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Hahaha, i am so happy now! Patton will beat Debo in Idola Cilik Final Show next week! I bet anyone of you for Patton to be the winner hahaha.. Wah, Happy.. Happy.. Happy.. Happy.. Happy :)
Anyway, Patton not my only "idola cilik" on that show, i prefer Obiet firstly until i heard that he failed to be the top three last week. My mom was in her recovery last Sunday, and got sad suddenly. Yeah, my mom is one of Obiet's big fan. She loves how Obiet sangs, not for sake of victory, instead of making us feel that he sang from his heart. Whuah, i truly love him *kiss kiss* hehehe..
Now, back focus on Patton again. Don't forget to vote him, by type PATTON send to 6228, don't forget ya. And don't forget to watch the final show too, and you'll get fall for him soon :)
Saturday, March 14, 2009
But, when i went to Penang Butterfly Farm in Penang, i became dislike butterfly and any other reptiles. Oh my God, i hate them! I have to admit that i dislike outdoor activities. I dislike to clean garden, to even splash my mom's plant, well they said it all are flowers, but i still didn't see it growed as a beautiful flower, it just full with leaves. Guess what i mean? Yes, anthurium, like Gelombang Cinta, and so on. I didn't think they are pretty, and still not think they are pretty hahaha..
I dislike being too much butterflies flies all over my body. And, a lot of caterpillar as butterflies friends also near with me. And, i promised you will shock, they have a hundred scorpion too! And to make it even worse they also put a pool for what, eels! God, i couldn't help to worry about it! But, my mom happy to see more and more exhibit, but, i truly want to go back to hotel to shower all my body, to make me feel more comfort. Iuhhh..
Well, here is some of our pictures there. Maybe you can see how i smiled while taking pictures but, now you know exactly that i was not that happy to go there. Oh, butterflies..
Well, we also had some fun there with Pak Cik Hamid, a good family man from Yaman, thanks for the drove, sir. We went to Penang Butterfly Farm, Queensbay, Batu Feringghi and Georgetown. The last one was the most exciting place i've travelled there. I hope someday i can visit Penang again, to see what i haven't see when i was there last week and also take pictures there. And continue to journey to KL and another country hehe.. Sint had announced me that he will go to Penang this June, daddy would you mind if i join him?hehehe.. *devil laugh*
Hehehe, bukan mau menggurui, aku juga cuma manusia biasa, lemah dan gampang putus asa. Apalagi lewat kejadian2 akhir2 ini, makin membuat aku, mm, kuat mungkin, namun disisi lain makin membuat sisi duniawiku muncul. Tuhan berkata kita tidak usah mengkhawatirkan apapun, Dia sudah menyediakan yang terbaik untuk kita dan kita tinggal mengerjakan apa yang baik menurut kita sesuai kehendakNya.
Perumpamaan terbaik untuk kisah ini adalah yahoo-messenger. Yah, bisa saja sih aku milih untuk pakai hotmail atau lainnya, tapi aku milih ym, karena menurutku itu yang paling simple dan banyak orang pakai, mengingat banyak pengguna account yahoo juga.
Pernah ym-an? Pernah menunggu seseorang nge-BUZZ anda? Pernah sengaja offline supaya terhindar dari seseorang? Atau, malah menanti2kan kapan bisa menggunakan web cam untuk melihat seseorang atau sesuatu? Dan saya pastikan anda pasti senang dengan kegunaan ym itu sendiri, seperti saya yang juga menyukainya. Yah, kalau pada tidak suka tentu kita tidak akan menggunakannya kan?
Namun, apa pernah anda menunggu seharian di depan layar menunggu BUZZ dari seseorang? Dan pernahkan anda begitu senang melihat tanda online dari seseorang? Saya pernah, dan saya mengharapkan seorang kawan sejati untuk terus online bersama saya. Dialah Jesus.
Dia kawan sejati kita, dan canggihnya lagi dia tak pernah sign out bahkan offline pun tidak. Layanan untuk menghubunginya, apapun account kita pasti selalu bisa terhubung kepadaNya. Dia bahkan membalas tiap pesan2 kita, tanpa lelah. Tanpa perlu layar, tanpa perlu kata2, hanya Dia, hanya Dia yang menjawabnya. Karena Dia selalu online.
Namun, apakah kita selalu online juga untuk mengetahui apa Dia online atau tidak? Komunikasi selalu dua arah, jika Dia selalu online, bagaimana dengan kita? Kadang kita tak yakin bahwa dia online sehingga kita mencari cara lain. Kadang kita takut Dia tahu kita online disaat yang tidak tepat, maka kita mengubah status kita dan pura2 menghindariNya. Kadang bahkan, karena kita takut pesan2 kita tak sampai, kita tidak menghubungiNya. Itu bukan kita, itu aku.
Aku tidak sering online kepada Jesus. Aku menyadari bahwa Dia selalu ada untukku, selalu online dan menanti tiap pesanku, tak perlu BUZZ untuk membuatNya terbangun dan menjadi fokus akan tiap pesanku, tapi akulah satu2nya yang menjauh dariNya. Aku tidak sering online, bahkan tidak mempercayai bahwa Dia itu menjadi salah satu temanku, yang bisa aku ajak tukar pikiran. Aku bahkan tidak menyadari Dia ada, bahkan siap kapan saja aku ganggu. Aku takut pesanku gagal dan perlu diulang berkali2, tanpa aku sadari tanpa aku ucapkan saja, Dia sudah tahu apa isi pesan2ku, apa dibalik tiap tangisku, apa yang membuatku tersenyum, apa yang membuatku cemas, siapa aku sesungguhnya dimataNya.
Namun, aku tahu setiap pertanyaan ada jawabnya. Setiap doa pun begitu. Aku hanya perlu terus menyadari bahwa tidak semua permohonan kita terkabulkan, namun setiap doa kita terjawabkan. Kita hanya perlu online denganNya, dan menceritakan kisah kita dan menunggu balasanNya, segera, sesuai waktuNya.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
1) Hi, my name is: Ana